old love, the m word, and Smurfs

My kids say we suffer from old love. Arghhh they say, "you are sick,gross, you are old." I say everyone should be as fortunate as my husband and I. As we have grown older, we've grown closer: possible because we don't and never have played mind games with each other. We talkalot, we also struggle to communicate, and listen with out hearing at times, at other times we know what the other person is feeling because of the body language or the sighs or even the quiet, sometimes we just communicate with our eyes. it happened over our 29 years of marriage--- well almost...

Today is another sad Sunday for me because the man has to work, I have the day off. Sometimes it is okay, butsometimes it isn't. We can never just take off for a weekend. We can never go to family functions together and we rarely entertain as we used to because we don't have the same days off as other people. He saw it in my eyes this morning, my red eyes --- the sadness, the longing, the love.... he left me his car, his ultimate sacrifice, his - i want you to have a good time--- i do...but....

We do have our children though who entertain us immensely --- and whom we are trying to figure out how to escape from at times because children, even grown children don't realize that sometimes the parents need space. Anyway, I will be traveling today with my daughter and grandson --- I don't know if I will come home or stay overnight. Why am I so undecided? Because I would rather be home with my husband, but he has to work, so why bother. I never thought that being married would mean we would see less of each other. Marriage complicates things because you can no longer just be lovers, you become tagged, labeled: husband, wife, workers, parents, father, mother, dishwasher, laundress, shoppers, chefs, greens keepers, pool man/woman, dog walker, fish feeder, turtle tenderhearted, garbage man/lady, accountants, mechanics, computer junkie, junkette, coach potato, and lovers. I think I will just keep that last thought in my mind, although we are all those other things, above all being lovers keeps us together, it is all the trapping of being married that keep us apart. Whew hah!

an observation:
just something my 27 year old daughter mentioned the other day....
about those Smurf from years ago. "Times are different, no one commented on Vanity Smurf, how he was some what a gay smurf, and what about Smurfette, the only female smurf. What a slut. How do they make Smurfs anyway?"