It is May 29th, the month is almost gone... I dont know where time has flown just that every day I am so busy I dont have any extra time. The mall closes now at 9 am which is just too early for me why does the world not have anything for night owls... Fred has quit smoking for 9 weeks now..it is awesome..no more stinky Papa and the savings is great....but the money seems to get soaked up by others at all times.... D is graduating the 8th and her party is Father's day, I have yet to get the invitations in the mail ...tonight tonight i say.... lethergic from leg pain --- I really need something to help with this crap...i will call the dr next week as she should be back from vacation. otherwise all is going well... quiet and i would just like some time off of work or to not have to work my ns days would be great... had a bad week for going to the gym, but i will get back to it tomorrow and try to get in the swing of things...
such is life... just bored i guess ....why cant i just relax...
Friday, May 29, 2009
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Tuesday
Who wants a ferret? I've never wanted a ferret but somehow we have one, a ferret obviously my daughter loves. He is stinky sometimes, and that I do not like at all, but all pets are stinky at times from my observations.... he is cute, special Ed they call him --- or sometimes just Eddie.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
The child
My youngest daughter has always had insight, insight into some of the harsher realities of life, insight into what is going on, now she has been accepted into Wheelock College, the place she says she really wants to go. She has a good plan, a five year master's degree in child life she says... so I say go for it, where all the money is going to come from I do not know yet, but we will get there some how. I went to look for a picture of her to post, instead I found this picture by her, strong in truth and tone, she is a multitalented woman, and I hope she never stops being who she is, but if only she had the wisdom that comes with age, oh my, she will be someone who places a mark in the world, even if i do say so myself being her mother.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
tuesday
it is a tuesday, now my day off and i am enjoying it immensly... i have time to myself, no pressure from others ...do this for me, do that for me.... this is nice, i could get used to this.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
awake at 2 am....
My hands are rough, spending too much time doing dishes, in water, and too much paper work...so much to do as it is...
work is a big mess
yesterdays snow storm and lack of personnel did not help...so be it, i am glad to have today off let someone else deal with it....
i will go to the gym and enjoy myself if possible...it sucks getting older why oh why
work is a big mess
yesterdays snow storm and lack of personnel did not help...so be it, i am glad to have today off let someone else deal with it....
i will go to the gym and enjoy myself if possible...it sucks getting older why oh why
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
over the bridge
the world became gray because the clouds would not let the sun in
rain poured upon the earth and the earth clammered go away
its frozen tundra pooled the water and the wind waved
the bridge wrapped in plastic
driving over it
the gray dank world turned opaque white
green girders stetched above and below arms carrying
lifting above
gated,
don't stop -- if you do you will be crushed by moving
metal and rubber and plastic
ships below wait to swollow you
above you the crunching goes on
breath in
reach for the exit,
the ground gray world waits
and welcomes you back again
Monday, February 16, 2009
Frebrewaire
So the world goes round and round, people that pay their bills will continue to pay the rest of the worlds debt -- it is disgusting let's face it, there is nothing fair about what is happening in the world, the stock market deflats every single day, companies are selling off merchandise and do not have the funds to make more, outsourcing has taken jobs away from our own country and kids today cant even find jobs at mickeyd's --- dunkins here and there. so many people i know are working two jobs ....they are burnt out... and i am only burnt out from the one job where my boss is expecting me to do two jobs without saying so....
as it is....
took the Bub to see his Dad, what a sad day, he was happy, but it was weird and it must seem weird to the baby, Who sees someone through glass except grandparents visiting the new baby in the nursery. It just sucked. My son is depressed and he looks it, his tshirt was not iron and it hung off him, his face was not broken out which is good, but it was the same routine. I said, why dont you stay here at least it is clean, but he said no, he needs to get out of there, so i wonder what is really going on behind those locked doors, he doesnt say and that is scary, what is the truth, i will never know, he never tells me.
my daughter drives me nuts, she has less enery then my self, as after we got home she was napping on the sofa while i took care of the kids, i really really need to make a change
my sugar is still out of wack and i am really trying i have classes to go to and also have to get into a rythnm at the gym that should help
as it is....
took the Bub to see his Dad, what a sad day, he was happy, but it was weird and it must seem weird to the baby, Who sees someone through glass except grandparents visiting the new baby in the nursery. It just sucked. My son is depressed and he looks it, his tshirt was not iron and it hung off him, his face was not broken out which is good, but it was the same routine. I said, why dont you stay here at least it is clean, but he said no, he needs to get out of there, so i wonder what is really going on behind those locked doors, he doesnt say and that is scary, what is the truth, i will never know, he never tells me.
my daughter drives me nuts, she has less enery then my self, as after we got home she was napping on the sofa while i took care of the kids, i really really need to make a change
my sugar is still out of wack and i am really trying i have classes to go to and also have to get into a rythnm at the gym that should help
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
so i have it
Since I got sick in Ocotober I've been on a diabetic watch, now here it is, have it diabetes, I would love to be able to say my dr is wrong and went on a witch hunt to make sure i have it, but i can't. My sugar is off and has been for over a year, only this doctor chose to look and research, not ignore what it is, anyway friday to the drs again, and then i guess classes and medication, great. arghhhh
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Ground Hog Day was Yesterday
and they didnt even mention it on the news. What is wrong with the world... A little ground hog, hedge hog or well I could be fresh here but I wont...
Ive got to go look up the prediction.
Monday, February 02, 2009
motivation
i have no motivation, and D,was supposed to be here and she left. well i will just go with that it is okay... today i do not need to stretch my self beyond where i am and i could have mindlessly, but i will let her try this and see what happens. all her college apps are in so now we are waiting... time is not so important but if she goes away to college then we will see what happens. oh well...
i am just going to take my shower here and go to work as usual, maybe i will go to the gym after wards
i am just going to take my shower here and go to work as usual, maybe i will go to the gym after wards
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Goodbye January
Goodbye January 2009
I cannot say that this has been a good month,
but then again I can't say it has been a bad month.
I need change signifigant change, I need to get away from my boss who is a complete egomaniac and poor in communication. It is disturbing for me to know, to think what I think and not be able to voice my opinion. I have so many thoughts it is frightful, and it all goes back to the po way of f...n someone and certainly, nice people finish last. that is the fact of it all. I really really do not like having a boss that I cannot communicate with, he is smug and sarcastic, and i am grateful to not have to deal with him on the same level as I dealt with him before, not this person who is taking over my job, well, let me just say this, good luck to her, because that job really really sucks, i am glad i will not be working at hard and earning as much cash, how that doesnt sound like me but in reality that is the way it is going to be. thank you God, this may not seem right but it is the way it is going to be for awhile, i will be glad to be able to try to get away from him too, because who knows how long he is going to be in the position he is in, and i am just sick of it....so this is the ramblin on of my incomprehensible situation but yet a very postal situation. arghhhh i h t p o
me
I cannot say that this has been a good month,
but then again I can't say it has been a bad month.
I need change signifigant change, I need to get away from my boss who is a complete egomaniac and poor in communication. It is disturbing for me to know, to think what I think and not be able to voice my opinion. I have so many thoughts it is frightful, and it all goes back to the po way of f...n someone and certainly, nice people finish last. that is the fact of it all. I really really do not like having a boss that I cannot communicate with, he is smug and sarcastic, and i am grateful to not have to deal with him on the same level as I dealt with him before, not this person who is taking over my job, well, let me just say this, good luck to her, because that job really really sucks, i am glad i will not be working at hard and earning as much cash, how that doesnt sound like me but in reality that is the way it is going to be. thank you God, this may not seem right but it is the way it is going to be for awhile, i will be glad to be able to try to get away from him too, because who knows how long he is going to be in the position he is in, and i am just sick of it....so this is the ramblin on of my incomprehensible situation but yet a very postal situation. arghhhh i h t p o
me
Thursday, January 22, 2009
january 22
Today is like no other day, exhausted from work ...12 hours again, no break in site really, i need a vacation. F is sick pneumonia.... too much.... and i have a zillion things to do besides... i hope today will be a better day. that's all
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
A prayer
I pray with tears held back by my jaw.
joy, relief, hope
today brings a new beginning,
everyone in this world can belong
get along.... better ....
I pray that thoughtful leadership breaks
the jail of prejudice and creates bonds
acceptance, hand and hand,
everyone hold on.
I pray that a child who is innocent
can face a future when the time for
understanding comes
a future that is less selfish
and more cooperative to get things done.
I pray that you and I
and he and she
and they come together with the goal
that we are one nation, one world, one mankind
with the ability to laugh, love and cry.
joy, relief, hope
today brings a new beginning,
everyone in this world can belong
get along.... better ....
I pray that thoughtful leadership breaks
the jail of prejudice and creates bonds
acceptance, hand and hand,
everyone hold on.
I pray that a child who is innocent
can face a future when the time for
understanding comes
a future that is less selfish
and more cooperative to get things done.
I pray that you and I
and he and she
and they come together with the goal
that we are one nation, one world, one mankind
with the ability to laugh, love and cry.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Monday, December 29, 2008
avoiding going to work
this morning I wonder where the weekend went, well yes, i worked Saturday so that was 1/2 of it, and i have so much work to do at work I am avoiding it at all costs. It is just too crazy to continue but I will... back to the grind where I really dont want to be I would rather be home with the fam....but I am going in now to see what I can get accomplished which probably is not much.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Just a jaunt
This Thanksgiving I had a wonderful overnight trip to New York City with my grandson, and my husband ----in tow --- I say my husband was in tow because he never traveled to NYC with us before, and Johnny and I, when we get to the city, we spark, we awaken, we perk.
It was the middle of the afternoon by the time we checked into our hotel room. We had dinner, then it was after 6. My husband was tired, he wanted his constitutional nap.
Johnny was excited and unable to rest -- as was I. We put on our walking faces and went to Rockerfeller Center first.... we visited the ice rink, Prometheus, the Nintendo store. Johnny remembered it being there last year --- Then we took our usual jaunt down 5th avenue. By the time we could see Central Park it was very dark, and the air had a chill, but we stuck together and stopped to gaze at window displays in Bergdorf and Goodman.
Ever since I've been visiting NYC -- these are the windows that entice, pique, and satisfy something in me beyond the material or any holiday wrapping, these windows cling to me as a spiritual gift --- satisfying something in side my heart and mind....
and this night I saw my mother's eye, Can you see it? My mother make cakes and she made them before I can even remember...and this window...posted before --- cakes rich with decorator's frosting is her style,and although she couldnt be with us on this trip, I saw her and will always see her when I look at this...
After our 15 block walk, Johnny begged, can't we take a ride Grammy -- You see- in one of those bicycle taxis... and I said, Johnny, let's see what it cost?
A young man called to us, Hey do you want a ride? His accent was foreign what nation I do not know, not Spanish but Mediterranean? and we said how much, 20 bucks he said, Where are you going? 44th and 6th. We climbed in...
He rode with abandon down 5th Avenue, Johnny yelled and called out with joy! Woah Wow, ahha and The taxi driver pedaled faster swerving in an out between cars. I held onto the side -- whoosh whoosh we rode.... Johnny and I grinned foolishly at each other when we came to a red light but didn't stop fully, the driver pedaled backwards... and forwards and off again we went with the flow of yellow taxis and Christmas lights glittering in our eyes.
The best ride for one of our best walks. When we got back to the hotel, Papa was awake and ready to go out to Times Square, he'd never been there before, and even though it was crowded, he willingly walked up to the Hersey's store where he bought the freshest GoodNPlenty on Earth...as we usually do... only this time, he was there. And he even liked it. What more to be Thankful for? The Parade, and oh it was just as good as seeing it on tv, only Better coz it was a perfect day in November.
It was the middle of the afternoon by the time we checked into our hotel room. We had dinner, then it was after 6. My husband was tired, he wanted his constitutional nap.
Johnny was excited and unable to rest -- as was I. We put on our walking faces and went to Rockerfeller Center first.... we visited the ice rink, Prometheus, the Nintendo store. Johnny remembered it being there last year --- Then we took our usual jaunt down 5th avenue. By the time we could see Central Park it was very dark, and the air had a chill, but we stuck together and stopped to gaze at window displays in Bergdorf and Goodman.
Ever since I've been visiting NYC -- these are the windows that entice, pique, and satisfy something in me beyond the material or any holiday wrapping, these windows cling to me as a spiritual gift --- satisfying something in side my heart and mind....
and this night I saw my mother's eye, Can you see it? My mother make cakes and she made them before I can even remember...and this window...posted before --- cakes rich with decorator's frosting is her style,and although she couldnt be with us on this trip, I saw her and will always see her when I look at this...
After our 15 block walk, Johnny begged, can't we take a ride Grammy -- You see- in one of those bicycle taxis... and I said, Johnny, let's see what it cost?
A young man called to us, Hey do you want a ride? His accent was foreign what nation I do not know, not Spanish but Mediterranean? and we said how much, 20 bucks he said, Where are you going? 44th and 6th. We climbed in...
He rode with abandon down 5th Avenue, Johnny yelled and called out with joy! Woah Wow, ahha and The taxi driver pedaled faster swerving in an out between cars. I held onto the side -- whoosh whoosh we rode.... Johnny and I grinned foolishly at each other when we came to a red light but didn't stop fully, the driver pedaled backwards... and forwards and off again we went with the flow of yellow taxis and Christmas lights glittering in our eyes.
The best ride for one of our best walks. When we got back to the hotel, Papa was awake and ready to go out to Times Square, he'd never been there before, and even though it was crowded, he willingly walked up to the Hersey's store where he bought the freshest GoodNPlenty on Earth...as we usually do... only this time, he was there. And he even liked it. What more to be Thankful for? The Parade, and oh it was just as good as seeing it on tv, only Better coz it was a perfect day in November.
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