sad

i am
sad about my sister being sick
it doesnt matter that i believe she will eventually be cured
it just sucks that she has to go through this
she has three kids
my mother always says, "who says life is fair?"
I hate that question.
I want to just scream.

other wise everything else is ok except for my tears
been so emotional lately it is like being on a bungie cord
high and low
the new baby is so sweet
my nerves are just shot
worry
i dont want to
but i do