Tuesday, February 24, 2009

over the bridge


the world became gray because the clouds would not let the sun in
rain poured upon the earth and the earth clammered go away
its frozen tundra pooled the water and the wind waved
the bridge wrapped in plastic

driving over it
the gray dank world turned opaque white
green girders stetched above and below arms carrying
lifting above
gated,

don't stop -- if you do you will be crushed by moving
metal and rubber and plastic
ships below wait to swollow you
above you the crunching goes on
breath in
reach for the exit,
the ground gray world waits
and welcomes you back again

Monday, February 16, 2009

Frebrewaire

So the world goes round and round, people that pay their bills will continue to pay the rest of the worlds debt -- it is disgusting let's face it, there is nothing fair about what is happening in the world, the stock market deflats every single day, companies are selling off merchandise and do not have the funds to make more, outsourcing has taken jobs away from our own country and kids today cant even find jobs at mickeyd's --- dunkins here and there. so many people i know are working two jobs ....they are burnt out... and i am only burnt out from the one job where my boss is expecting me to do two jobs without saying so....

as it is....

took the Bub to see his Dad, what a sad day, he was happy, but it was weird and it must seem weird to the baby, Who sees someone through glass except grandparents visiting the new baby in the nursery. It just sucked. My son is depressed and he looks it, his tshirt was not iron and it hung off him, his face was not broken out which is good, but it was the same routine. I said, why dont you stay here at least it is clean, but he said no, he needs to get out of there, so i wonder what is really going on behind those locked doors, he doesnt say and that is scary, what is the truth, i will never know, he never tells me.

my daughter drives me nuts, she has less enery then my self, as after we got home she was napping on the sofa while i took care of the kids, i really really need to make a change


my sugar is still out of wack and i am really trying i have classes to go to and also have to get into a rythnm at the gym that should help

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

so i have it

Since I got sick in Ocotober I've been on a diabetic watch, now here it is, have it diabetes, I would love to be able to say my dr is wrong and went on a witch hunt to make sure i have it, but i can't. My sugar is off and has been for over a year, only this doctor chose to look and research, not ignore what it is, anyway friday to the drs again, and then i guess classes and medication, great. arghhhh

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Ground Hog Day was Yesterday


and they didnt even mention it on the news. What is wrong with the world... A little ground hog, hedge hog or well I could be fresh here but I wont...

Ive got to go look up the prediction.

Monday, February 02, 2009

motivation

i have no motivation, and D,was supposed to be here and she left. well i will just go with that it is okay... today i do not need to stretch my self beyond where i am and i could have mindlessly, but i will let her try this and see what happens. all her college apps are in so now we are waiting... time is not so important but if she goes away to college then we will see what happens. oh well...

i am just going to take my shower here and go to work as usual, maybe i will go to the gym after wards