911 Memorial NYC

South side calm cool. Serene. The north a tempest of tears.

New Year

Went to NYC. No times sq for Fred Nd I. Closed the sq at 530. All shops at 5 and if you didn't get into a pen the pigs would question your behind. But we had a fine day and a few more. So sad it is over could live on tour. A few pics below oh ho ho ho so sad it is over. Now it's cold cold cold

Just thoughts.

So many little lights little sprites taken from life by someone unsteady not crooked but unthinking We want to know why. I wish some one could have known and they could have been saved from it.
So sad at Christmas

Big Head Santa

Big head is ready to play Santa! Love this at ashmont t

Impatient

Can't wait to see hall and Oates tonight!

Bad

I can't stand the way the world works. People who use and abuse others my son is just an ass and the people I work with suck too.

Turkey Day

Sunday November 18

Everyone in the house sick with a bug... lots to do to get ready for the holiday.  No words can express the difficulty of this past month.  But I will go on the is a certainty... saw Babs the other day, she and I in the same in the same way different but the same, much as the rest from the party last night... not too much into the drinking seen and by the time i peeled away the skin from working...and became myself it was late in the night.  Watched Hope Springs with F.... he found the Tommy Lee Jones character difficult to connect to...much as I found Meryl Streeps character not to match me very much.... it just didn't apply to us    I am too out spoken and don't let things go and F he too I think.  Why be married> if you are living like you are alone?  that was the main question.  Fix it or it doesn't work yup that was it.  So the woman took charge.

Sounds like my job, lazy men who only want to do what has to be done nothing more...typical and none of them have an artistic or creative depth to them at all  They drive me nuts...and I wonder why I don't belong.
anyway a few photos will be fun to add today

hummm what shall i pick from

Ouch

November 16.

Down the cape

Saw a gorgeous red tree. Must photo later

Crying inside

There is not enough time in my days. They go by so quickly I just can't relax. Today there is snow on the ground not much but fresh. How nice it would be to just clean off the car and sip coffee while the sun comes up. Boo hoo for work

Ugh

Some people just suck!

Almost Halloween

Tomorrow is Halloween. Have no energy. Oh well. Just broken hearted son coming out of his insanity. Drugs are evil

just going on

have no desire to go back an fix blogs posts that come off my phone, it is extremely difficult to post when you have no glasses on and you need them...or the glasses you own are not strong enough, and you refuse to up the correction because once you do you go up and up and up, eyes on drugs.  glasses

any way, they took him, im not sure what day because it is all a blur now, what a rough emotional week, lil r is here and not himself so i am sure he heard gossip some place, that's how little kids find out stuff that hurts, gossip---

so i am just dealing with it, happy he is not dead for the moment, but no phone call no anything...im just sad

going out to work on my garden and enjoy the fall weather.  it is just beautiful here
i love it

never mind the fact the my br is a jerk, i wont get into it, people just don't want to give up anything now a days.

Sleeve

Just a few days that I would live to expose my heart and not cover it up with other wishes or dreams or desires or fears but no one around me could stand me if I were to bare my soul do much pain

Can't sleep

The day has been long. Didn't do much. Stomach churning like electric. Nerves just shot wondering how much longer this is going to go on. Stress.

Happy Birthday

Johnny is 14 today.  We are having chocolate cake with chocolate twirls and pizza.... It is just a hard day.  Johnny is good...
R is not so good.  so sad.  I think he is on a trip to the never land forever.  it is so awful I am just miserable, to top it off my mom has the same fear about her own son, not her oldest but her youngest..it is just awful.

 

7 minutes

I have 7 minutes til I need to get up. It is Friday. This week has been long and torturous. My son is sick. If he doesn't kick it he will be dead. We cannot enable him any more. He has to make the choice. chaos reigns. S has a new job. Very difficult change. Mm is sick with a flu F vertigo. D political outrage. Haha and me just trying to keep the crew together. That is family a band of tuneless playing this game of life.
I'm still praying as pray is good. It should not be the last resort it should be always there. Prayer= allies. Because prayers combined stretch across the sky and infiltrate unseen. But I know they are there

Yup

Tears is all